Intro, I guess
It's 1:09 AM as I write this and it's the first of October. I don't know if I'm just a Virgo but there is something really satisfying about starting something new on the first day of the month. Sometimes I feel like I can't start anything if I'm stuck in the middle of another project or task. It's like I need to finish one thing at a time and you can't mix up the order or else the original project is dead. Doctors said I don't have ADHD so don't even try it - I think low attention span and difficulty with sustaining long term goals is just a symptom of the times.
I've always wanted to share my joy for music with other people and miss long form content. TikTok and Instagram only allow for so much conversation, and the visual component paired with it is something I've always struggled with. Do I have to invest heavily in video editing skills, as well as turn my face into a commodity just so people can pick apart my ideas and believe only what matters most to them? If the reel or tiktok does not fall into the algorithms standards, is it lost media? Maybe this website is somewhat lost media, but I get the joy of being able to directly share it with those who matter to me, and revel in my fascination with archival work. Are diaries just archives of our lives? Is this my music diary? Wonder how this is gonna pan out.
Admittedly it feels a bit ironic calling this "long form content" when my seroquel is beginning to hit and making my brain think in idioms as it slowly start to melt into an anxiety-free mush that lulls me to sleep. Because how much of this is content versus just writing shit down. But I needed to write something today in case I don't tomorrow. Because it's the first of the month and I want to get started. Or else I never will.
This past year has been really rough for a lot of people, myself included. There are a lot of difficult truths I am beginning to have to accept about my career and my health, I just turned 27 last month, and feel like I'm reaching an age where people start to imply you're supposed to have everything figured out, but who the fuck does? This year may have been one of the hardest of my life and it's still not even over. But despite all of this, as corny as it sounds, it has been music that has saved my life again and again and again during these difficult times.
Music allowed me to cry in the dark in the confines of my room when the world was crashing down on me and there was no way to escape myself. Music allowed me to experience euphoria rushing through my veins on a sweaty dance floor at 3 in the morning, moving in sync with strangers under flashing strobe lights. Every high and every low is soundtracked with a record that instantly transports me back to said time. Every moment forever etched in my memory as easily accessible as a Spotify playlist.
Music is what has gotten me through this dark patch and I owe it to the art form to document my love for it when it was the only thing keeping me going. When I did an in depth listening of Preacher's Daughter for the first time earlier this year, I couldn't stop crying and opened my notes app and wrote: "No matter what, you have to live".
I don't know what I'll review first. I don't know if it will only be reviews. I don't know if folks will read this since theres no specific topic tied to it, only a general introduction. I don't imagine anyone reading this is new, at this point, but if you are - I'm Frankie, I love music, I love analyzing and thinking about music, and I love sharing my findings with my friends. So tune in, hopefully there will be something you like :)
((author's note - i have no idea how to use this website. my friend introduced me to it and i figured id give it a shot. so we're just gonna go with that for now i guess)).